Inside a police informant's mind

Content: MOTIVATIONS OF AN INFORMANT  Blood Brothers The Agent's Perspective The Handler's Perspective  Blood Money Police Pay The Real Money  Streets of Blood The Criminal World The World I Lived In A Short Sentence Dealing with Fear Ulterior Motives Paranoia and Diversion  The Thrill and Excitement A Day's Work Adrenaline Rush Cold Call  Cold Blooded Breaking Bread with My Target Revenge Easing Guilt A Pat on the Back Taking the Train Building a Career  Police Study Controlling Conversations Witness Protection Coordinators Gathering Intel for Manipulation Pushing Buttons  CHARACTERISTICS OF A STRONG SOURCE HANDLER  Dedicated to the Job To Serve and To Protect When They Break When They Are Broken The Price of Policing A Picture of Dedication  Trust First Time Trust in an Unlikely Situation Trusting with My Life on the Line The Need for Trust  Empathy An Example Training Another Example Caught, Not Taught  Understanding Motives A Good Day to Die Evaluating Informants Looking Within  Clear and Concise Communication Getting Through  Control and Humility Observation Post A Personal Example The Other Side of the Story Outside the Prison Walls  Resilience On Call Dramatic Intervention Innovative Thinking Quick Thinking  Sense of Humor A Macabre Tale A Fish Story Inhumane World A Vital Skill  Discernment Nervous Waiting A Gut Feeling An Open Question An Encounter with Wolves Complacency and Alertness  Witness Protection Coordinators Professional Moral Compass By the Book Intelligence and the Wisdom of Experience Only the Best  Partners in Crime Brent Mikey Steve Andy and Mike Chris and David Ultimate Partners  LOOKING BACK Blank Stares  Gifts and Curses of an Informant Curse Gift of Gab Women  Taking a Life Perspective Prevention Is Better Than Regret  Hours on the Stand Betrayal Collateral Damage The Truth Will Set You Free Life and Death Lessons for Handlers  Life as a Rat The Care of My Boy Cling Like a Barnacle It's an Addiction  Witness Protection and Starting Over Disorientation Old Habits Finances and Bookkeeping Being Hunted Better Option  Final Thoughts Reckless Dangerous Rachel's Law The Handler's Perspective Last Words  Appendix A: Police Perspectives on Paul Derry as a Source  Appendix B: Words between a Source and His Handlers